The tale of the Good Fairy For all the nameless children

Dear nameless boy,

I know your story since Thursday and I want you to know that I have cried for you.

I know what you are living.

I can feel your fear having to go sleep at your father's house.

How neither your mother nor you sleep because of your terrible nightmares in which you dream that horrible things happen to her. He told me about the violent attacks you are having in the mornings, and I see how alone you are.

Your mother has put herself in a bubble to survive everything she has experienced and now she is not able to get you out..

Because you haven't come out yet.

I know you have to sleep with him in the same bed, because he lives in only one room and you sleep on a cushion on the floor when he brings one of the many women to his bed.

I know you've had to build up a part of yourself that loves him to convince yourself that it's not so bad to be there.. In your head there are so many parts and so polarized that sometimes it is impossible for you to know who you are and who others are..

You are so full of anger.

And with so much, and so many people around; educators, teachers, psychologists… you do not escape misunderstanding.

And sometimes the easiest thing is to blame you.. To think that you are like your father.

Yeah, I know you notice that your mother thinks so too and that is what causes you the most pain..

I know well what fear is capable of doing within people., I know him in first person.

Dear nameless boy, I have spoken with her.

As I have tried so many times, like you with your violence, awaken the rage inside her so she wakes up. He is doing everything he can but everything is terribly insufficient for you and your pain reaches me. I know that the educators have called your father, finally after a year with him they seem to realize that your behavior has to do with what you experience there. Yeah, I know, the adult world is absurd, this, blind, cruel, disconnected and sometimes too deeply in denial to understand how you feel.

Someday you will discover how complicated the violent network is that has led your father and mother to give you such a difficult existence.. Some day, maybe, you will be able to feel all the pain that they carry inside, what we all carry. You too will grow and quite possibly play your part in this endless chain.

But I want you to know that inside you there is a part that will be protected, without damaging, a part that will keep you connected to life. Quite possibly your protective parts will hide it so well that you may hardly realize you are there.. but you will be, and one day you may meet another human being who reflects that part of you and by feeling it you will gain enough strength to begin to heal such a deep wound..

Dear nameless boy, this story is for you. I don't know you but I carry you in my heart.

THE GOOD FAIRY (Adapted by Jan Mullen from a client report by Tara Brach, “Rosalie” finding a guide in an IFS therapy session)

From the corners where silence remains, comes the urge to climb to the top of a mountain and shout the truth. and I asked God, to the universe – “It hurts too much, I can't stand it!”- and she came to me, the power of my mind, the energy of the universe, a blue angel, like the good fairy from the Wizard of Oz. I sat cross-legged on the floor of my room., looking up, about eight years old. she told me, “Dear, this is the deal. There's a lot going on here and I don't have the power to make them go away., to make everything okay, or even to help you carry it in such a way that it does not cause you harm. what i can do, dear, is to help you get through this while it's happening. will come back to you, but it will only come back later, when you are able to handle it and there is someone to help you.” So, I told him, “Okay because I can't take it anymore.”

She waved her wand and said: “I am going to send these things that are happening to different parts of your body, and your body will keep them like a treasure chest, like a time capsule. your heart, Your heart is broken and I'm going to have to leave your ribcage closed around it and hold it tight so you can't feel the pain as it breaks.. And I'm going to squeeze your neck tight and turn it into a fortress with the highest walls., so your feelings can't reach your throat, and so you can't put words to them. You will not be able to cry for help or shout your anger. And you won't be able to breathe very deeply to feel what's happening to your body.. And that strength will prevent what your body knows is happening to it from connecting with your head., so you won't be completely aware of it. And I will tie your ears, so that you hear but cannot enter much.”

“I want you to be a quiet and somewhat embarrassing girl.”, so that we do not interrupt what is happening to put it very carefully in its place. And it will stay this way. You will have problems having feelings and feeling close to other people, but that will be your way to survive. And you, my love, you will be able to function as a human being despite this pain, because you have a strong spirit that can keep this inside. And I will help you.” “You won't forget everything. You will be visited by sadness, questions, or flashes of images that will direct you, like marking the way, to explore what happened. And I will leave a voice inside you, like a spark of light, that will push you to reconnect with yourself, to find that person you are now who is asking for help and whose heart is absolutely broken. You may not understand this voice well!! It will manifest as an impulse within you but it will be your lost essence speaking to you as it can through your aching body so that you can return and find yourself.”

“When the right time comes, you will start to open up. It will be a very long process. It will take as much time to heal as you have been in the place where everything is frozen.. Finally, your body will no longer be able to keep that inside. Your muscles will begin to give way, and you will feel the urgency to heal physically, and that will begin the process of really relaxing your body and realizing how much it has been enduring these years.. This will cause physical and emotional pain during the process.. But by then you will be strong enough to face the truth and you will have a very special friend., that will be the adult you have become, who will take care of you like no one else can until you find yourself again.”

“As all this will begin to relax, You will fight to free your mind from the falsehoods it has learned to survive, and the walls of fear that separated you from the truth. The mind, at first, will believe that only the person who caused you harm has the power to free you from it and will need time to trust that this is not true. You will fight to get your mind and body to flow and become one again.. but you will, because you are a person with full capacity and a heart longing for love. I don't know exactly what it will be like, but the universe will take you there. You will have to be very patient, very brave, but it will be your training, your litmus test, your healing. And when you're already going through it, you will be a complete person: new and at the same time the same.”

“Now I want you to go to bed.. I'll wave my wand and you'll fall asleep, and when you wake up, you must have forgotten that I was here. You will forget that you asked for help and you will not feel the pain of everyday life. This is the only way I know for you to get through this.. You are a beautiful girl. I don't understand the reasons why this terrible burden falls on you, but I love you and the universe loves you.. You will have to love yourself enough to heal yourself, and thus be able to live the rest of your life fully, full of light. The painful memories will still be there, but with another perspective. One day you will be whole again. Until then and forever. I love you.”